Do you ever find yourself getting caught up in collecting information for the sake of collecting more?
We have this tendency in our practice- our practice of being generous, making an impact, being open and available to others around us- we have this tendency to externalize the practice.
We get wrapped up in ideas and concepts. We make our practice this big project with all of these complicated pieces. We gather and collect, piece together and reanalyze. Maybe even start back at square one.
We need to evaluate what is relevant to our practice. The process of doing that needs to occur on the basis of what is going on inside of us, not outside of us.
Where are we getting stuck? What are we grasping at? Where is our hope and fear?
Obstacles that we encounter in our mind are the ground for hope and fear. The cycle of hope and fear spring from the resistance that is occurring in our own minds.
Information gathering becomes a hiding place. It becomes busy work that keeps us occupied and safe.
When that happens, it is not relevant to our practice.
Internalize your practice.
Notice when and why you try to get away.
When you break through the resistance, it is like a dam giving way, all the qualities that were blockaded naturally pour out.